I woke up pretty early today,say 8.15am.
Maybe it's not that early to some others,but kinda early for my Sunday.
Mr bro asked me to rem to offer joss sticks to my ancestors but there's not even a match sticks box around.How to burn?
I was told never to just burn using the fire from the stove,sadly my brother unknowingly did.
Make a mental note to buy lighter later.

My eyes are still kinda pinkish and think I have to drop Yng's date.Sorry gal.
But still the turkey trip still have to be made.

That brings me to the topic for this morning's blog.
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I hate it when it comes to the time when I am being extra sensitive or just have extra feels for anything and everything!

(Btw have you heard John Mayer's new song?It's called Daughters,I think.His typical lazy voice makes me wanna zzz. But the lyrics kinda funny.
Gals become lovers who turns into mothers so mothers be good to your daughters too.)
???)

I msged Jason last night asking if he would like to accompany me to buy turkey.I am not trying to seek for a companion for the journey nor am I thinking he MUST accompany me.
He told me he cant initially.True I cant hide the disappointment but it's ok.I tried to shake it off by watching the tv.

But later he changed his mind.I dunno why?Maybe he read my blog or so?But I dun wanna know coz I was so touched and happy then.
I thought he remembered...

But he still has to fetch his granny from the airport later so I dun wanna trouble him by having him makes two trips.I was already very happy inside that he did wanna accompany me.

Till he msged one last as a matter of factly concern.
"But the turkey is heavy,can you manage?"

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I mean this is true,turkeys are fat and heavy and really that is just a matter of fact.
Sigh...
How do i put it?

It seems that I am asking for his companion becoz I need some help with the heavy turkey.
Truely...NO.
I can summon the strength of Xena princess if I want to.At the most I would drag my feet home.

I just wanna be like last year...
When we bought the turkey together.
I wanna make it a so called "tradition" to be kept.

I know he doesnt mean it that way.But i eventually rejected his offer.

I replied with that bit of sacarsm but I hoep he don't mind.

i woke up telling myself that I shouldn't put my needs,feels and wants on top of everything in this relationship.
It is not just about me,myself and I.

Just becoz I have a blog,happily translating all my feels in words,knowing he would read eventually..It doesn't mean that you have to go with me all the time.

So be it..I think I would be alright shopping alone too.

So to everyone,have a good Sunday.